This morning I am a little more calm from my angry rant last night. In part, it has been forced upon me. The past few week’s stress coupled with last night actually did send me over an edge, and not an invisible one. I woke up with a pinched nerve in my upper back. It is PAINFUL. I can’t move around very well and doing just about anything that involves my left arm is rather excrutiating at this point.
I only get these things when I’m internalizing an extreme amount of stress. Normally I would go to a walk in clinic and get a muscle relaxant shot as well as dope up on anti-inflamatories and painkillers. However, I don’t have the option right now because I’m breastfeeding. So I’m sitting here at my work desk, in a lot of pain with a heating pad, trying to stay as calm as possilbe. Any stress whatsoever prolongs the healing process.
Husband has been appropriately concerned but he keeps asking the wrong questions. Is there something that is going on at work you haven’t shared? What stress? Gee, let me think. In the course of a few months I remarried, had a baby, had a baby, had a baby, your son moved in with us for the summer, I’ve returned to work, I’m putting our son in daycare, I hate my job, etc… I can’t imagine why on earth I would be stressed. Especially when I have probably 5 minutes to myself to try and cope with it all per day.
Oooh, I’m getting irritable again. Pain in my back. I just love this.
