I’m stressed. I’m sure some of it is a product of serious sleep deprivation. My 4 month old baby has been displaying some symptoms of possible teething with low-grade fever, wanting to gnaw on everything in site and being more inconsolable than usual. He still is happy, smiling and giggly, but the nights are just terrible!
My husband is grossly unhappy at his job. Unfortunately we work at the same place as well so I have a feeling that our respective attitudes and performances have an effect on how others perceive us. We were an “office affair” as well, we’ve have had a baby together, etc… so I think there is some attitude towards the both of us from that standpoint as well.
The job unhappiness is leading towards DH looking for another job…in another state closer to his son. As long as he tolerated his job at our company, I held out hope that we might be here for a few years. I don’t think that is going to be the case. He wants to move us around 9 hours away from my family closer to his son and his ex-wife since he is currently 9 hours away. I don’t completely begrudge him that desire, but it starts me down a path of HATING his ex for being so awful as to move their son so far away from his Daddy. And it had everything to do with her and nothing to do with what was good for their son. I have to pay the price. Not only do I get to spend more time with her and have my life invaded, but it’s at the expense of me keeping my sanity around my own family.
And speaking of the ex, I get to finally meet her face-to-face. She had mused coming down here for her son’s 4th birthday. She wasn’t able to work it out. I had called her flaking on that and seriously thought she’d flake on the whole thing, but then she surprised both me and DH yesterday by sending us a flight she had already booked for the following weekend. She had asked if we were free over the next few weekends. I had replied yes, but I didn’t think she was just going to book the flight without asking us.
*sigh* So now I am inevitably going to stress out over this meeting for the next 10 days. Of course now I have to book a hair appt to get a new cut and some major color done. I might book a mani/pedi as well along with finding a new outfit. No way am I going to meet her looking like a frump. Not that I do really…but, you know. This is kind of a big deal. I’d imagine she’s going to go through some of the same since she’s avoided meeting me for 2 years now. I’m the “new” wife. The one that “replaced” her. I’m sure she’ll make every effort to look great and be as agreeable and mature as possible.
We’ve had a few back and forth emails where she has acknowledged certain things were going to be hard. I’ve done the same. We were getting WAY ahead of ourselves with thinking either of us could handle large group activities and multiple times at that. Too much too soon. I ended up writing her an email and simply asked if we could just meet and go from there. I think both of us are extremely curious about the other, but don’t know how real life is going to go. I guess we’ll see.
I still need to book that hair appointment though…
