This is it. A very simple sentence consisting of three rather common and nondescript words. This three word sentence though has come to symbolize every single joy in my life. Let me explain:
In my first marriage, from almost the beginning I would ponder, “Is this it?” Notice that this question uses the same words from the sentence above. I would ask myself that question in response to looking at the rest of my life with the person I had promised to love and cherish for the rest of my life. And even more troubling than the question were the answers I would give myself. And the most troubling part of all was how unhappy I was with those answers. For anyone reading this, I suppose you are asking why on earth did I marry this poor guy I speak of in my posts. That answer is for another time.
Now, sitting here typing, baby monitor to my side on the alert for anything that sounds like squirming, listening to my husband bang away at the computer in our room building a new website, and swirling thoughts of terror realizing my maternity leave is almost up and we’re getting my step-son for the summer and that means, oh yeah, more dealings with his ex-wife, I still feel more content and happy than I ever have been in my life. I have so much. I look forward to the rest of my life. Sure some of it might be messy and unconventional, but I have a husband who I know is my soulmate. I adore him and he adores me. I have a beautiful baby boy with him. I have hope. I have love. This is the rest of my life. And I smile while I think about those three little words, “This is it.”
